Motherhood is having half of the things on your to-do list halfway done, perpetually. So where better to start than where I am? Over four months into this new life, I have to say the landscape of day-to-day is ever-changing.
If there is one thing I know to be true, I will never be the same.
It is incredibly difficult to write about the experience of becoming a mother because it is very intimate. I find it to be the hardest thing to describe. I'm speechless. As mother and son, Miles and I have been on an unbelievable journey together. Many days I doubt myself and my own capabilities while simultaneously basking in the glow radiating from my Miles' golden-red hair and cheerful demeanor. In the words of one of my all time favorite songs: I am in repair, I'm not together, but I'm getting there.
If you have ever felt like you were building yourself from the ground up, I am with you. Before Miles I was not as deeply motivated as I am now. Before Miles, I was in the habit of accepting of my constant procrastination and not challenging myself to pursue my passions. Before Miles I never knew how incredibly sweet and delicious a darling cheek against my own could feel.
Before Miles there was no boundary on how much time I could waste. Now my spare moments- while sometimes are spent in total relaxation and other times fast energy- are decidedly purposeful. My lips have given five million kisses (and still it feels like too few each day). And when I think about fear, my first instinct is to smirk a bit because I have already faced so many of my own in the process of becoming a mom, and one wild thing about my son is that he is fearless.
Thank you
for following me on this journey and sharing in this next part of my life! I am excited to write again. I feel inspired by so many things right now, from motherhood to setting up our first home, and discovering what truly brings me joy in life. I hope this is a place you leave feeling uplifted and reminded that challenges we face are just opportunities to grow.
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